My physical body was a wreck. I was not taking good care of myself and in return my body was not being kind to me. I dreaded getting up in the morning and frankly if I didn't wake up - it would have been fine. The physical un-wellness had manifested itself in some psychological ways as well. I didn't think anyone liked me (let alone loved me), I never thought I was worth anything and mirrors became taboo in my life. Up to the point when I was diagnosed, I was in major depression and in complete denial about my downward spiral. I mastered the art of the fake smile and phony laugh.
You need to listen to your body because your body is listening to you.
- Dr. Phil McGraw
When the fight or flight response is inevitable - when you have no choice but to choose one, and you know you really cannot choose flight - I mean, you have a diagnosis of Type 2 Diabetes staring at you - where will you fly to? You can't escape it - although I've seen newly diagnosed patients who give it a try! They find very creative ways of sinking into denial. I'm so thankful I had the presence of mind to realize this is not a diagnosis I had the ability to escape. I had to fight it the best way I could. And fight I have done - and fight I will continue to do!
You cannot be who and what you are unless you have a lifestyle, both internally and externally, that is designed to support that definition of self.
- Dr. Phil McGraw
There comes a point during the battle when you sort of ease into the routine and you sense a sort of anticipation about life that you lacked before. In my case, I was so sick (and evidently did not realize just how bad I felt) and when I began to feel better, it was like a blindfold had been removed from my eyes! Life was no longer a chore to be done every day - there was some joy inside me for the first time in a very long time! I began to journey with anticipation! I looked forward to each new day with brand new enthusiasm!
I love life today! I smile for no reason. I laugh for no reason. I feel great and I'm happy for the first time in a very long time! Today I look forward to my future and more joy in my journey! Bring it on!
A few years ago, I was listening to Dr. Phil on TV. He was counseling a couple about their rocky marriage and asked both of them, "How much fun are you to live with?" I asked myself that question and I was really ashamed of the answer. I had to admit I was absolutely NO fun to live with - none! I've made some great strides since that time, I'm happy to say! Today I am a lot more fun to live with. I became a better role model for the kids I taught, I became a better co-worker, I became a better wife, and I became a better friend.
Awareness without action is worthless. - Dr. Phil McGraw
When you make the decision to take care of yourself, everything else falls into its proper place. I have a great journey ahead of me - and I don't want it to be something I just have to go through with a sense of gloom hanging over me. I want to journey with a sense of wonder - with anticipation! Tomorrow is very exciting to me now. Let's DO this!
Anticipation - it's a GOOD thing!!!
Today is NATIONAL HANDWRITING DAY!!!!!!!!! Spend some time today practicing your handwriting. Good penmanship is a lost art these days, since we have computers and usually type most of our correspondence. Your handwriting tells a lot about your personality. It matters whether you have good handwriting or not. And yes, spelling counts! **wink**